We celebrated Ava's birthday a little early this year since we are unsure when we will be traveling in the next couple of months. I never thought we would be having her birthday party this year without her little sister. Every milestone that has come or goes by is so hard. Even grocery shopping, looking at the expiration dates, I am thinking, I wonder - will we be home with G*** by then. Everyday I ask God to help me for just today, only today, I can't think any further than that, it is so hard. I can't look back either and think about all the stuff she is missing with us. I have to rest in the Lord's peace. I am very grateful He is guiding me, pointing out things that remind me to be grateful for what I have TODAY. and I am.
Blessings and Love,